A New Beginning

I'm going to church in the morning for the first time in nearly a year. Intellectually, I'm excited about it. I'm excited about blogging about it and telling people what I thought. I'm looking forward to thinking about religion/theology again.

Emotionally, I'm not very excited at all. I feel like I've forgotten how to dress for church, how I should act at church, and even the rituals. Of course, every different church has its own rituals. I really enjoy figuring out what the quirks of each particular church are, and I'm sure that the words will come back to me quickly enough. I don't feel the passion for church any more. I think that is really what I'm searching for.

I feel like I am going about this totally differently than I ever have before. In the past, I've always been hunting for a church home. I am now, but I don't expect to find one. I feel like I will never find a church that measures up to my last church. I'm not ruling it out, but I wonder where a place is for me in a very conservative geographical area. Where do the liberals go to church? Do they go to church at all? I don't know where to find them. That really is a question that those who churchsurf face: Where can I find the people like me?